#sadness – Phuro!

“I am the center of my own web of circumstances and as I change so must my outer world.”

Neville

Maybe you stumbled on this website because you were looking for inspiration or motivation, maybe you were looking for help or assistance because you feel blocked in life. Maybe you just feel alone or not understood by your surroundings. Maybe you are awakening and you realize that it isn’t an easy process and you wonder if other people are experiencing the same.

I know it is not always easy to tell out loud what you feel inside, or to participate in another dumbed-down daily life conversation again. I know what it feels like being in no-man’s land, being an outlaw, fitting in nowhere ! The awakening process often brings you to dark places and leaves you scarred, not knowing who you truly are.

“There’s a blue moon
Or a bright sun
Shining in every sky
Better think twice
Before this life baby
Just passes you by”

Maybe as a child you were told several times you couldn’t do something, or you were beaten and you grew up feeling unappreciated, unworthy or worse : unloved ! It can be difficult to bring all these experiences up to the surface and to find your king-pin, your oppressor, your core resisting thoughts and beliefs !

But as you move through the pain and shed all this old stuff, you will gain more confidence in yourself. When you feel drained by the struggle in life, sometimes all it takes is a spark of faith ! Sooner or later there will be a turning point where you finally start letting go, detaching yourself from all these low inner states.

“Everyone knows there’s no
Sure way of telling
Which way to go
Open your heart
Come on let’s start
Making a new love grow”*

What’s it worth ?

You are. You are worth it ! You are worth to not only live or exist but you are worth to live a happy life ! If you are not convinced by this statement then you still resist your own happiness !

Keep stripping off all these limited identities and conditions and accept the Being that you are. Accept how powerful you are and start flowing with life again !

I hope you are a visitor ready for self empowerment, ready to take another outlook on life, I hope this is a place where you can feel at ease and start being at peace with yourself !

“Tell me what is takes
Tell me what it takes
To get a happy look
And a smile on your face
Tell me what it takes
Tell me what it takes
To make the sadness end
And start living again”*

Phuro! Be inspired!

*Song : Tell me what it takes ~Soulsister

A friend of ours used to have a snack bar in our neighbourhood. One evening my son ran to the counter and ordered french fries and a burger, he mentioned to our friend that he didn’t like the sesame seeds on the bun !

Our friend immediately took a burger bun and started scraping off the seeds…

I started laughing. ”What are you doing silly, you don’t have to do that you know, stop that ! You are treating my son like a king.” I said.

He turned to me : “If the boy wants a burger without those tiny bastards, he will have one !”

Before I could even reply he continued : “Shall I remind you of one of your house rules lady : “The Queen doesn’t cook on Friday !” “Well today is my turn to treat him like a King !” He winked at my son who already had a big smile on his face !

There was no point in arguing with him so I rested my case ! Our conversations were always quite loud and joyful, we liked to tease each other !

But months later our plans to have french fries for dinner were disturbed, the doors from our friend’s bar were closed and stayed closed. Closed as in forever closed…

He had killed himself the night before. We were all in shock. How was that possible ?

He was fully prepared and had it all planned. He had written his last wishes on paper for his family. One of them was to play “Sky and sand” at his funeral.

That’s the reason why some weeks later, I found myself in tears at a wedding party when the DJ played this song. Although it used to be one of my favourites, I was now instantly reminded of darkness and death !

There I was asking myself : “Why ? Why you ? What were you thinking ? Why was your soul in such pain ? Why didn’t you shout out and ask for help ?”

He was already the third one who decided to step out of life and hang himself. The weight of those three fell on me, through that song, that night on the dancefloor…

Music touches our soul directly and is able to remind us of the good times and the bad times. It can bring back joyful and painful memories and trigger our deepest sadness or happiness !

It took me a while to get over the sadness and grief that I had linked to the song and to really appreciate it again without shedding tears.

I now see its beauty again and when I hear it I think about all those beautiful souls and the good times we had !

As long as we are flying, all this world ain’t got no end !

Phuro! Be inspired!

Tag: #sadness

Tell me what it takes

Sky & sand