Something is wrong with me ! I am going crazy ! My buttons are being pushed ! Why can’t I cope with life ? What is this pressure ?
You often ignore the first signs of unease or illness your body is sending you. For years you go on living your life on auto mode. In the meantime you get very creative in giving life to different identities so you are able to “operate” in this world, preferably with as less pain as possible !
From monday to friday you are person A, except the evenings at home, where you turn into person B, then from friday evening till monday morning you turn into person C…
In your weekend, in this limited amount of spare time, you try to recharge your batteries, but all you do is exhausting yourself even further ! And again you get busy with unimportant things : you go shopping for useless things and you party all night long ! On sunday you stay in bed, trying to digest your hangover !
Then monday morning a new repetitive cycle starts all over again; endlessly ! Untill one day, you simply feel it is enough, you simply can’t cope anymore ! There’s the nerveous break down or the severe illness, completely shutting off your human plant !
You find yourself depressed, burned out, stressed, exhausted, you have ADD or ADHD, high blood pressure,…you start putting names on your conditions, you are not only tagging your imaginary boxes, you start identifying with them !
Instead of finding out what causes the pain, you start taking pills to ease you off your pain. But all these drugs seem to do is to numb you down even further, forcing you to hide your pain, to throw away the key to this box and to hide it somewhere in your system,….never to be found again !
What if pain, any pain, mental or fysical is just a resistance to your natural self ? What if this pain just means you are out of course, out of alignement with your naturel self ?
Could it be that you are in pain because society is pushing you in some kind of direction without you being aware of it ? A direction that is not yours…
What if you feel deep down in your core, that the way the world goes isn’t that natural after all ?
What if you are sane in an insane world and you just keep blaming yourself for not being who you really are ?
As Laura sings : You will know in the end that this is fiction. It’s in your mind ! Live your life instead ! So tell me what’s the pressure ?
Phuro! Be inspired!